0429 - Feelings and Seder of Yechidus of Bochurim Part 1

00:01 I would like to relate what was going on at the time when we were able to go into Yechidas Protis, into a private Yechidas to the Rebbe. I want to relate the Seder and the feelings that went along with it, that the Bochrim had. Now, for sure, the feelings and things like that and what the Bochrim did as a preparation for Yechidas was not the same by all the Bochrim. So all I could say over is the experience that I had. But I know that B'derech Klal generally this was the experience that most of the Bochrim had. Now, different details probably were there, but generally speaking this is the same experience. Used to go in every year before your birthday. The closest Yechidas to your birthday. Now, sometimes the birthday was at a time when there was no Yechidas because there were certain times of the year where there's no Yechidas. So you would go in before that. For instance, myself, since my birthday is in the middle of the summer and during the summer I would go to camp or basically to Merkeshlicha. So I would go into Yechidas a few weeks before in honor of my birthday. The Seder by the Bochrim was that at least seven days before the Yechidas you knew that you're going in. You had your appointment to go in. So seven days before, at least seven days before, the Bocher already became a different Bocher. Became serious, would daven differently, learn Nigla and learn Chassidis, be very careful

01:23 of the Sodom of the Yeshiva, stronger in Yiras Shamaim. Because we felt that when you go into Yechidas, the Rebbe would look at you and he sees everything. So at least outwardly the last few days should be good and the Rebbe should only see good things. That your Levushim, so to speak, your garments, your spiritual garments should be clean when you go into Yechidas. Just like a person wouldn't go, chas v'shalom, to Yechidas with dirty clothes. So you have to clean your clothes. So you have to clean also your Levushim of Machshava, Dibra, Maise. The Bocherim would lay in Krishma Shalamita differently in a more serious way during that week. You could tell on a Bocher that he's preparing himself to go into Yechidas. Even a Bocher that wasn't from the top Chassidish of Bocherim would behave that way. Obviously there were different levels, but even a simple Bocher. But the week before Yechidas would be a different Bocher. For instance, not every Bocher went every day to the Mikveh, but that week he would go every day to the Mikveh, things like that. And you spent more time learning the Rebbe's Torah, learning the Rebbe's Maimorim. Now the truth is, at that time there weren't many Maimorim, the time, the beginning of the Chof's, not too many Maimorim of the Rebbe Mugi that you could learn. So you learned Bilti Mugi, you learned those few that were Mugi, like the Boshe Leganis, the few Boshe Leganis, and whatever other Maimor that was Mugi. Maim

02:46 Rav and Tov Shin Yud Zion, and whatever was available from the Rebbe Sichas Mugi. But even the not Mugi, you would learn it because that was the best preparation for Yechidas, which is a time of Iskashas. On the day of Yechidas, the Bocherim would fast. And therefore, the Maskirim would know that they would try to let the Bocherim in from the beginning of the Yechidas. They shouldn't be waiting for later because they'd continue fasting. So you would try to let them in earlier because they were fasting. A Bocher would put on a gartel under his jacket, even though Bocherim and Lubavitch don't wear a gartel after davening and things like that. But going into Yechidas, he would put on a gartel, but not over your jacket, but under your jacket. Because it was known that when the Bocherim came in Tov Shin Yud, the Rusishe Bocherim that came from France, and they came in Shvat Tov Shin Yud, and they were going to go, went into Yechidas of the Friedrich Rebbe. So the Rebbe at that time told them that he thinks that they should wear a gartel, but not to be beilit. So wear a gartel under your jacket. So the Bocherim would wear a gartel when they went into Yechidas under the jacket. And the whole day, the last day before you went into Yechidas, you would be extra careful in learning and davening. You would learn extra of the Rebbe's Torah, and you would say a lot of tilim for that day,

04:01 so you should be matzliach and you're going into Yechidas. And certainly when you were ready to go into Yechidas, and standing there by the door, waiting for your turn to go in, which was moments of great seriousness, Bocherim would stand with tilim, saying tilim, and preparing more to going into Yechidas. And I will continue the next voice note.