Gaaguim Atzmiyim

00:00 Speaker 1 It is [unclear] down to the very foundation, and it must be [unclear]. [unclear] a fresh chossid, a fresh scholar, [unclear]. They pass through the desires and the troubles, through the [unclear]. They have gone through the journey, the walls and the troubles. But [unclear] what I saw [unclear]. Well, [unclear].

00:35 Speaker 2 Well, [unclear]?

00:36 Speaker 1 Well, [unclear]. The Rabbi sang the niggun of “An’im Zemiros” and stood up. [unclear]. The Rabbi once said that there was a chossid who, even [unclear], and on Yom Kippur he [unclear]. For the chossid, the ratzo, the intent, is from above to below—shov. [unclear] ratzo, shov, shov, shov. [unclear]. I remember, he stood [unclear]. And the Rabbi once said that for the chossid, the ratzo, the intent, is from above to below—shov. [unclear]. But the intent is from below to above, to make you into [unclear]. But we are here, in everyday life. This is the light before the tzimtzum as it is after the tzimtzum. Here, in everyday life, we study the maamar “Shov,” which is from Samech Vav, together with the maamar from Samech Alef. When a bochur studies the maamarim, he is [unclear]; it passes through the light before the tzimtzum. [unclear]. And the Rabbi said: The chossid dances in the middle of the night, in the [unclear] hours. And what we know—the intent—is indeed [unclear]. We know from this that this is the intent. And fortunate are those

02:47 Speaker 1 who carry it forward and put it into practice, while we [unclear]. But there is that essential yearning, that which [unclear] into the innermost sanctuary. But we are no longer there. And [unclear] expressed that. It must be that we, now in everyday life, [unclear] the light before the tzimtzum; and when a bochur studies Samech Vav, it makes it even easier. You are here now, in everyday life; you are not [unclear]. Here is where the light before the tzimtzum is found [unclear]. And the Rabbi once said: This is the niggun, over two [unclear], when a bochur feels that he is [unclear], and the light before the tzimtzum, and [unclear] from above to below. [unclear]. But we are here in everyday life, and Samech Vav [unclear]. It is hard to explain this in [unclear], but the point is that we are here with essential yearning. A bochur feels that here, here, here [unclear]. So much so that when he goes to sleep, before bed, Krias Shema She’al Hamitah does [unclear]; he feels like breaking himself. And he wants to lie down [unclear]. In the morning he doesn’t feel like getting up to learn Chassidus—so get up and learn Chassidus. He doesn’t feel like

04:39 Speaker 1 getting up. True, he doesn’t feel like getting up. [unclear]. But he has to break himself and get through the morning, [unclear] the days. It comes [unclear], really.