0593 - The Rebbe Told R' Zalman Jaffe that He Won't Be About to Hold Back From Speaking at Farbrengen

00:01 For many years, a lot of guests used to come from England for Shvu'os. One of the main people was Rav Zalman Yaffe. The Rebbe was mekarev him very much, et cetera, et cetera. For a year, Tov Shen Chodaladi also came. And then when they were going to leave, he went into Yechidas the Thursday before they were going to leave. So I heard him tol over a vort of what the Rebbe, he spoke with the Rebbe. I'm sure he spoke a lot of more things, and I'm sure that this is written in one of his diaries. But I just remember from what he said then he tolled over. That on that Yechidas, which was Thursday night, and the plan was there shouldn't be a farbrengen. He asked the Rebbe to come out in the farbrengen because the guests are leaving back to England. So the Rebbe said, that's what he said over, that he has to prepare for a farbrengen. So he said to the Rebbe, "Let it be without a maimer." So the Rebbe said, "For the sichas, I also have to prepare." So Rav Zalman Yaffe answered him, as I remember he repeated, he said, "You know what?" Said, "The Rebbe won't speak. Let the Rebbe just come down, and they'll sit and sing a lot of nigunim, and the Rebbe will be there." And the Rebbe answered him to sit there for a long time, and I won't be able to hold myself back from speaking, and I will speak. I'm not sure

01:10 this is what he said to the Rebbe, and the Rebbe answered this. Maybe he said that, "You know what? Let them sing a lot of nigunim, and that'll give the Rebbe time to prepare." But I'm not sure. I think what he said was, if I remember correctly, that he said to the Rebbe, "So the Rebbe won't speak. The Rebbe will just sing nigunim." And that's when the Rebbe answered that he won't be able to hold himself back. But could be it was the other thing that he said to the Rebbe that they'll sing a lot of nigunim, a long time, so the Rebbe will have time to prepare. And that's when the Rebbe answered him, "But, uh, I won't be able to hold myself back." Uh, I don't remember exactly which way it was. The first way seems to make more sense because the answer of the Rebbe, I won't be able to hold myself back, fits more to if he said, "Oh, you shouldn't talk." So Rebbe said, "I won't help. I have to talk." But the other way, when he said, "I'll give the Rebbe time to prepare," so what did the Rebbe mean that I won't be able to hold myself back? But whichever way, something like this is what he said. Maybe we could check it up in the diary, see exactly what he said to the Rebbe and what the Rebbe answered.