0571 - Feeling of Bochur When Davening as Shliach Tzibur on Front of the Rebbe

00:01 Everyone knows that when you stood in front of the Rebbe, you stood with the greatest derech eretz, with the greatest yiras Hakodosh, the greatest awe. And this was not only when you stood by Yechidus all alone, or when you went over by dollars, but even when it was in public, in front of others, like by Farbrengen. But more it was felt in the us and in the chofs when the Rebbe would daven Mincha Ma'ariv with the Bochum's minyan. And there were not so many Bochum there. They had some Imber Light also come to the davening, but it was basically a smaller crowd. And the Rebbe came into Mincha Ma'ariv, and the Rebbe stood in his corner. Everybody moved away. And the feeling you got that you, you had to stand there in such a special way. You couldn't do anything. You wouldn't do anything in front of the Rebbe. Now, there was a problem sometimes that there was nobody to go over to the Amud. That sometimes there was no Chiuv who had to daven for the Amud, and there is no Imber Man who came in, and this was a Bochum's minyan, so it's very likely that there's no one to come to the Amud. Nevertheless, they always would find somebody to go over to the Amud. But it did happen sometimes that no one went over to the Amud, and the Rebbe came in. I remember quite a few times it happened. The Rebbe came in, like 3:15 he came in to Mincha,

01:11 or 9:30 to Ma'ariv, holding his gartel, came into his place, and there's nobody by the Amud. So what would happen? So any Bocher who was not far from the Amud would just run over. It's not nice that the Rebbe should stand and wait, and nobody's by the Amud. So we'd run over to daven, to go to the Amud. But the feeling the Bocher had davening as a Shliach Tzivur in front of the Rebbe, especially when there's a smaller crowd, and, you know, your, every little one, every little, every little thing that happens is seen, and every person counts. So the feeling you got was, was a very nervous feeling. But there was no choice. Whoever was standing close would do that. I remember quite a few times it happened that I was standing close, and the Rebbe walked in, and there's nobody by the Amud, so I ran over to the Amud, and I davened for the Amud. But the daven was so nervous. Standing in front of the Rebbe and davening, you had to make sure that you daven with these theories when the Rebbe fears. So it's, it w- it was, you're completely nervous. And afterwards, for hours afterwards, ken in kumpnis shuzich, they wouldn't come to your, back to yourself. You were nervous. You couldn't do anything because the feeling that you had to daven for the Amud in front of the Rebbe was some special feeling. It's a feeling that we can't even describe. But this is how it was, that

02:26 the feeling was so special, so nervous, but they had no choice because the Rebbe's standing there, and you can't not go over. The Rebbe should just stand and wait even an extra second. Actually, I even heard from some people who came, like Orchim, they said one of the things that impressed them is that there's no such thing as having the Rebbe wait an extra second. That, and they themselves saw that it happened a few times during Tishrei, that there was punkt nobody that by the Amud, and the Rebbe walked in. In a second, somebody walked over to the Amud and started right away, or Boracham or Ashe, whatever it is. But this was a feeling that you had, that you davened in, for the Amud in front of the Rebbe. There was this very, very special feeling.