0544 - The Rebbe Cried When Explaining Ariza'l

00:01 In the Kudus Sichas Chelek Tes, the first Sichas to Parashat HaZinu starting from page two hundred and four is taken from the Farbrengen of Shabbos Shuva Tov Shin Chof Zayin and Tov Shin Chof Ches and Vov Tishrei Tov Shin Chof Ches. And the Nekudah of the Sichas is about what it says in Kisvei HaArizal that kol mi she'eine bocheh be'aseret yemei teshuva ein nishmaso shleima. Anybody who doesn't cry in Aseret Yemei Teshuva shows that his neshamah is not complete. And the Rebbe asks the kasha from the lashon kol mi she'eine bocheh, anybody who doesn't cry Aseret Yemei Teshuva shows his neshamah is not complete, refers to everybody including a tzaddik gomer. And the question is, why would we expect a tzaddik gomer to cry so much that if he doesn't, shows that his neshamah is not complete? Be'elev somebody does aveiros, you have to do teshuva, and you cry, and if it comes Aseret Yemei Teshuva, and he doesn't cry, and he doesn't care, it doesn't bother him, shows something wrong. But a tzaddik gomer, why would we have to cry? And the Rebbe goes through a whole shakla v'tarya, and finally the Rebbe says that we know that it says in Chassidus that the ikar of teshuva is not only on aveiros, but it is as it says in pasuk, v'haruach toshevah el okeha meshenasonah. The ruach, which means the neshamah should return to Hashem the way it was given. That means that the neshamah lamayla, before it comes down here to this bo-

01:15 world, the body, is no mitzius. It's completely bottled to Hashem. It doesn't feel its mitzius at all. When it comes down here, it becomes a mitzius. Down here, it's impossible to be bottled completely to no mitzius. Even like it says in Tanya, even a tzaddik gomer that serves Hashem at avodah betainugim, the highest level of avodas Hashem, is still a yesh, is still a being. Yesh mishe'iveh. There is a person who loves Hashem, so we still say that there is a person who loves Hashem. That means that there is a mitzius of a person. And he's not, can't reach the level the way the neshamah was bottled to Hashem before, and that's why a tzaddik gomer would cry. A tzaddik gomer cries why he cannot reach the level of bitul to Hashem as the neshamah was before it came down. Because he can't reach there, and therefore he cries. But then the Rebbe asks, since he can't reach it, it's impossible to reach it, and it's not his fault, why would he cry? Why would it bother him? Why would he cry over it when he knows it can't help it anyway? So the Rebbe answered that be'emes, since neshamah is there etza mehus eza lekus, it's only a lekus as it becomes a nivra, but it's really be'emes a lekus. So a neshamah has the ability, has the power to go out of the gedar of the creatures and to reach the level of bitul v'mitzius as the neshamah was before it came down

02:34 to this world. And how does the neshamah reach it? By being farbitert, he said, by being bitter, by being, feeling bad and crying. Why he's not in that level, that's a form that he really could unclothe himself of any mitzius, and he take becomes completely bottled to Hashem. So bemeilev when it says kol mi she'eine bocheh, anybody who doesn't cry shows that something wrong, that goes on tzaddik gomer also because a tzaddik gomer would also cry, and he would cry for this reason that he's still missing his bitul. Because sof kosov, he could reach that madrega. It's possible to reach that madrega through the real feeling bad about why he doesn't have that madrega. Now, I want to say that when we were standing by the Farbrengen, the Rebbe was saying, talking to the siyum, he was crying, he was choking up, and the feeling we got, and actually we discussed it after the Farbrengen between ourselves, that the feeling we got that the Rebbe was expressing his feelings. It wasn't just talking a inyan that it says in Kisvei HaArizal. He lived it. You could see when he was talking about the feeling of missing the bitul to Hashem, and bemeilev you were able to reach it, he was expressing where he feels and his expressing his feelings, his matzav. And he was living it rather than just talking about it. You could feel it that way. Now, what went through the Rebbe's mind, no one knows, but the feeling you got, the way

03:50 he spoke about it, he spoke about it as such, you know, he was... Got choked up, and he was crying. You could see he was feeling this inyan that he was talking about, and this made such a great impression on everybody listening to the Rebbe speaking these inyanim and chas v'Shalom crying where he gives the feeling that he is poshet, expressing his feeling what he lives.